Four days in, and I still don't have a clue what I'm doing!

This is confidence, right?

The thing I do know is that in only 4 days of showing up, consistently, on this journey, I've already developed some sense of accomplishment. It's just a bud of accomplishment, and I want a whole life filled with this feeling , so I'm nowhere near satisfied. But it's a signpost. It's nice to not still be at the trailhead, even if there's a long way left to go.

This is hopeful, scary, exciting, risky!

Adventure!

I've begun to look for myself to show up. Now, when evening hits and I still haven't shown up, I don't start lining up the excuses. The excuses are all still dependably there.

But now, I can't let myself down.
And deep inside, even if I don't see a lot of people around me yet, I know other people are on this trail with me. I'm preparing the way for some, and striving to meet others up ahead.

I don't know what it is, or how to outline it yet, but what I am doing by being here every day is serving a purpose.

Or maybe i know more than I think I do.

Or maybe I'm still on the cusp of trusting myself with where I am, and figuring out all the gear.

But I'm pretty certain about making it to day 5, alive.

Day 4, Walking through the door towards my dreams.